As I am sitting here in the quiet reminiscing of my life and that my birthday is tomorrow, I am reminded of this scripture: “but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not become weary, they will walk and not faint.”Isaiah 40:31 CSB. I am reminded of all the hard times that God has brought me through in my 32 (almost 33) years of life. All of the ups and downs that have come my way and yet I’m still standing.
We so often think we can’t stand strong during our trials, when that is so far from the truth. We can if we trust in God. We can soar high above our deepest and darkest valleys. We can run without falling. We just have to learn how to completely trust in Him.
I have taken a long time to learn this lesson, but I know without a shadow of doubt that I can make it through anything with God on my side. Infertility has taught me how to trust God in ways deeper than I could’ve imagined. As hard as infertility is, I sit here thankful for the life God has given me. I’m thankful of the woman I’ve become today. I truly believe that if infertility hadn’t have happened to me, that I may not have become who I am today.
You see, God took my brokenness and made it my strength. He took my tears and turned them into my testimony. The amount of couples and women I have been able to reach and help, I don’t believe would’ve happened if infertility didn’t happen. I don’t believe I would be a foster parent if infertility hadn’t happened. Being a foster parent is a ministry. You not only help provide for the children, but in most cases you are and can be a light of Jesus to their parents.
I have been changed forever from my infertility journey and even my foster journey, I will never be the same, the brokenness that comes with those two things are unexplainable! However, the trust I have gained in God is undeniable. The nights I have cried out to Him for hours in despair. The times where I’ve read and read His word just to make my heart stop hurting. All that built my trust up in Him.
So, whenever you’re in the valley looking up at that very tall and frightening mountain. Remember, that one day, even though you can’t see it now, one day this will become your testimony. This trial you are facing right now will one day be the story someone needs to hear in order for them to make it through their journey. Embrace all the hurt, pain and brokenness you are feeling and turn it around into your strength. Don’t let it become you but let it TRANSFORM you into a better you. It is now time for you to build up your trust in Him on a deeper level than. Mount up your wings and soar into the breakthrough that is coming your way. Xoxo
As humans, we struggle with fleshly emotions and desires every day. We are constantly waging a war inside of us against our flesh and our spirit. We allow our flesh to overcome more than we usually like to admit too. We think about all the people in the Bible who won their battles. Daniel was kept safe from being eaten by lions in the den. Noah was spared the flood. Shadrach, Meshech and Abendego were spared in the fiery furnace by God’s protection and so many more.. Then comes the question What about me? We think why am I not being protected like they were? Why has God forgotten about me?
I find myself struggling with this question far more than I want to admit it, but part of me writing this blog; is to be vulernable and raw to my readers, so here it is. Life is hard. It is filled with so many uncertainties and right when you think everything is going perfectly BAM there’s a wrench thrown in. The enemy takes these moments while we are weak and fleshly to whisper even more doubts and fears into our hearts. He tells us your turn isn’t coming. You wont win. You can’t handle it anymore. Lies upon lies upon lies. Yet, we humans are weak in our flesh so we tend to believe the father of lies more than we should.
Anxiety and worry can exacerbate the feeling of “what about me” and believe me I know it is WAY easier said than done to “let go and Let God” but that’s exactly what we need to do. We can’t constantly keep asking “what about me” as hard as it is for me to even speak these words out loud to myself. The Bible tells us over and over to trust in God, give your burdens to Him and to NOT FEAR; but that’s the exact opposite thing we usually do. Why is that? One answer could be human nature. Another could be the enemy. The answer doesn’t really matter, what matters is that we STOP. Stop allowing the whispers to overcome us. Stop thinking that because someone else got their victory that yours isn’t coming. Stop. Stop. Stop.
During my trial of infertility and now being a foster to adopt parent, I’ve learned that God isn’t intentionally blessing others with children and not blessing me. It isn’t becuase of anything I am or am not doing. The answer is simply becuase His plan is different than mine. His timing is different than my idea of when it should happen. When I feel the fear and panic attacks creeping up, I have learned to speak the power of the name of Jesus against them, even if its a million times a day before the anxiety leaves. I keep speaking Jesus. I keep diving into His word. I keep telling myself He’s in control, even if in that moment of weakness I can’t believe it, I keep saying it because I know in my spirit it is true.
So, I said all of this so that it can help you. You may feel like you’re in a pit of despair and no one hears your cries. You may feel like your blessings skip over you and always go to the next person. I want you to know that that’s simply not true. You have a Father in Heaven that loves you! He loves you so much that He died for you! He made a way for you, yes YOU to be able to spend all eternity with Him forever and ever. Remeber this, when you’re crying those tears on your pillow every night wondering if they’re all in vain. Remember this when you find yourself asking multiple times a day “what about me”. He chose you for this particular trial that you’re facing and I promise you He will be with you through to the very end. When it is all over you will look back on all that pain and understand why He chose you to walk through it. It will be worth it in the end. Xoxo
Are you feeling overwhelmed? Pray to Him and tell Him what overwhelms you. In the depths of our despair we can cry out to God. Confide in Him and share your burdens. It is in this posture of turning to Him that we learn He is trustworthy. Turn to God for help and He will lead you to a towering rock of safety. His word says “He is our rock and salvation.” Go to the rock! How can I cry out to Him?
- Dive into the Word. Let it speak to your heart.
- Pray without ceasing! Let Him take it all away!
- Allow the spirit to consume your heart!
- Give Him all your fears.
Life can drag us down and leave us feeling hopeless. We get so overwhelmed in our jobs, infertility, finances, parenting and so on. Take your burdens to Him. Allow Him to be bigger than your problems! Don’t put things before Him. Let Him be more than enough for you. Don’t give up! Xoxo
“I call to you from the ends of the earth when my heart is without strength. Lead me to a rock that is high above me,”
Psalms 61:2 CSB
The Bible tells us to “come boldly to the throne.” Why does it seem like sometimes as Christians we are shy? Are we ashamed to proclaim to be a Christian? We should be bold in our walk with God. We should be bold in our spirit. Elijah was one of the boldest prophets in the Bible. He wasn’t afraid to tell the children of Israel they were worshipping a false god. He proclaimed the One True God to them boldly and without fear.
My challenge for you is to be bold in your walk with God. Don’t allow anything or anyone to steal your boldness. Be bold during your infertility. Don’t let the fear of maybe never having children steal your boldness. Go to throne of God with BOLDNESS! Show the devil you’re not afraid. Don’t fear inviting someone to go to church with you. Don’t fear asking if you can pray with or for someone. Be bold as a foster momma! Don’t allow the enemy to whisper those whispers of self doubt. Be bold in your adoption journey. Don’t allow the feelings of never being chosen stop you from trying. Be bold in raising your children to know who Jesus is, even when they fight you every step of the way. No matter what this life may bring. Be brave. Be BOLD! Take your request boldly to God, let the one true living God hear the boldness in your requests. Don’t let this world steal your boldness. Be bold and watch things happen! Xoxo
“Therefore, let us approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in time of need.”
Hebrews 4:16 CSB
People can be so hurtful to each other. We so easily disregard others feelings and tear each other down. It seems easier to be cruel than to be generous. This one of the most divisive trick of the enemy. He has made this world be full of hate.
There is one tool stronger and better than hate, LOVE! Love conquers all. Love can mend broken hearts. Love is a kind word. Love is going out of your way for others. Love is greater than hate! Love is forgiveness!
So, I challenge you to love your enemies. God has called us to show His love! That means even to the ones who hurt us. We need to be the best example to the world that’s so full of hate. So spread the love. Pray for those who have hurt you. Show Christ’s love by loving those who don’t love you! Xoxo
“”But I say to you who hear, Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,”
Luke 6:27 ESV
All week there has been one word that keeps being whispered to my heart multiple times a day. What is that word you ask? PEACE. This can be such a loaded word at times becuase it has so many different meanings. The dictionary defines peace in two ways; 1.) freedom from disturbance, tranquilty. 2.) A state or period where there is no war or war has ended. The Bible has a multititude of defintions for this word, however, there are a few that really stick out to me that I want to share with you.
In the New Testament it shows us that God is peace. We find this in the scriptures Romans 15:33,16:20 and 2 Thessalonians 3:16, these verses all show us that God is being referred to as Peace. To have God with us and in our lives is to also have peace in our lives. He gives us peace through His blessings, His love and His every being. So why do so many of us struggle with having no peace? I personally believe because as humans we try to fix all the struggles in our lives on our own without seeking God. If we dont constantly invite Him to be with us, then we are also not inviting His peace into our lives either.
The Bible also tells us to have “peace with one another” (Mark 9:50) and to “live in peace with one another and the God of peace will be with you” (2 Corinth. 13:11) To me these passages show me that in order to sustain Gods peace in your life you need to have peace with those in your lives as well. You cant expect to live a peaceful life when you’re not practicing peace with your relationships.
I can continue on and on with different meanings of peace throughout all of scripture, but I wont. I feel like these are the two examples God has laid on my heart this week. The enemy wants to steal our peace, meaning steal God from our lives. Think of him as a road block constantly popping up and trying to detour from where you are supposed to go. If we allow him to constantly block us from God then we are allowing him to block us from Gods peace. Our relationships with those in our lives is the same. He will try to destroy our bond with people so that he can destroy our peace as well.
My pastor recently said in a sermon that we need too “tell the devil to shut his face.” That statment couldnt be anymore true. The next time the enemy tries to steal your peace you need to tell him to SHUT HIS FACE. Show him that no matter what he tries to throw your way, that you will always have the God of peace with you to shield you with an overflowing bubble of His everlasting peace! I want to do something different with this post and end it with a prayer, pray along with me.
Father, I thank you for your everlasting peace You give to my heart. I pray that you help me to fight the road blocks that try and steal my peace. Help me to live my life in peace with others. Show me how to overcome my fear and find the victory of peace today. It is in Jesus name I declare all these things. Amen.
God is the perfect judge because He created the law. When we judge other people it is a sign we don’t trust God Or it is a sign that we think our own authority is greater than God’s. Both of these ideas are far from the truth.
If you find yourself looking down on another person, try focusing on your love and appreciation for them instead. Your love is bigger than your judgement. Love will make a greater impact on their heart and souls than any of your judgment or condemnation. That is the reason Jesus Himself was the perfect example of love.
I challenge you today, the next time you think a judgmental thought towards someone to replace it with a loving one. Let Jesus love overflow out of your heart and speak hope into someone’s heart. Let God do the judging and allow Him to use you for love. Love instead of judge. Xoxo
“There is one lawgiver and judge who is able to save and to destroy. But who are you to judge your neighbor?”
James 4:12 CSB
Sometimes emotions can get the best of us and cause us to say words we don’t truly mean. When you get so overwhelmed in emotions, you don’t think before you speak causing hurt to someone. The Bible tells us to “be slow to anger.” The tongue is our most deadly weapon, we cut people down with it, we gossip with it, we say hurtful things to others with it. We can hurt so many with our tongues.
We cannot allow our fleshy emotions to hinder our spiritual influence. People will hurt us, make us so angry we want to scream, but we have to “bite our tongues.” As the saying goes “if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all.” Use your tongue to speak love! Speak truth, life and hope into someone’s life with it. Pray for someone with it. Don’t allow the enemy to take your emotions and use them for his gain. Use your weapon for good. Speak truth! Xoxo
“The one who guards his mouth and tongue keeps himself out of trouble.”
Proverbs 21:23 CSB
As women, we constantly struggle with comparing ourselves. I for one am guilty of this. I constantly compare myself to other wives, moms, Christians, friends; etc. every single time I do I am left feeling inadequate. I think I’m not good enough. I think all the things I’m doing are nothing and void. All that is doing is setting myself up to be constantly kicked by the enemy.
He will use our weakness of comparison to destroy us. He will whisper continuous thoughts of doubt and steal our joy. We need to stop that cycle. How you ask? Being confident. Confident in ourselves not to compare ourselves to others. To see ourselves through the eyes of Jesus.
Christ made us all unique in our own ways. I maybe able to encourage people in ways others can’t and vise versa. Our Heavenly Father gave us individual gifts to use to help others. He didn’t want us constantly going down the rabbit hole of comparison. He wants us united and joyful so we can spread His gospel and truth the lost and hurting. We can’t be the vessels He needs us to be if we are constantly breaking ourselves down in comparison to others.
So, I challenge you and myself to break the cycle of comparison. Next time you find yourself comparing stop it, refocus and be joyful for that person. Turn the comparison into joy. Stop allowing it to steal your joy away. Be confident. Be bold. Be JOYFUL. We are all in this together, as sisters and brothers in Christ. Our journeys may be different and that’s ok. The differences shouldn’t cause division, instead we should use them to join together to help others. Be thankful for you who are and the gifts you were given. Don’t let comparison become your downfall. Xoxo
“Let each person examine his own work, and then he can take pride in himself alone, and not compare himself with someone else. For each person will have to carry his own load.”
Galatians 6:4-5 CSB
I know you’re discouraged right now. You can’t understand the plan God has for you. You don’t know why that door wasn’t the one for you to walk through. Worry is creeping into your heart, you worry you won’t be able to save enough, that the fertility meds won’t work, the IVF won’t be successful. You worry adoption will fall through. Worried that fostering will be too much for you to bare. You worry, worry, worry!
Don’t allow the enemy to use your discouragement against you. He wants you to feel defeated. To feel hopeless. To feel ashamed. ENOUGH! Don’t give up! God will always make away! When one door closes, He WILL open another. It may be a different door than you had planned, but trust in His plan. No matter how hard it seems, know that He has your back always! Stand in your faith. Stand on your promise! Stand on God’s Word. Don’t give up! Xoxo
“For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”
Matthew 7:8 CSB